I remind myself. Put the past in the past. Learn from it. Put expectations there too. They don’t help a thing. Put love right out in front of you like a hood ornament (the kind they put on old Fords) ready to meet things first, with a bit of shine.
You know; if I told you the past year was a doozy for me full of hard lessons; you’d be able to find someone with more difficulty and more trouble. The world is full of examples. So, let’s just say that last year gave me enormous opportunity for growth. For this; I am grateful. For if nothing changes; nothing changes. Jesus has decided to rein me back in for some more work under the hood. He might check that all the gears are working and the steering too.
With daily intent to seek the understanding of His will and all that I need to fulfill it; there is peace in me.
My life slows.
I hear more with greater understanding.
I react less.
My defects appear to me.
I turn these over to Jesus.
He is the Great Encourager!
Gratitude appreciates from day to day.
The only sanity in this world is to live here as God intends. If we live in this world in our own way; we alone cannot fathom it’s purpose or endure its difficulty. But if we live in this world knowing that each thing and every person has a part in Divine order and Heavenly purpose; we can live well. We can heal from the things in the past that got us stuck. We can step into the future with greater joy, thanks and mobility.
One of many things that we can see in the Bible related to Jesus is: he steps forward into every situation with whatever ability God gives him at each moment. He doesn’t read about what to do or ask another what to do- he takes the action of meeting his day- face to face on God’s terms. Jesus shows us he never forgets to thank God, his father.
We learn by doing; at least I do. The better I get at understanding my place in the order of Diving things; the better I become at it. Each of us, yes- I’m looking at you. Each of us is designed according to the will of God for the purpose of His design alone. Through our being, fashioned for His purpose; we bring variation, individual interest, personal abilities, extraordinary uniqueness and personal joy to His amazing plan.
So don’t go out of your way listening to what others say you should do or what you shouldn’t do. Go straight to Jesus. Ask him if it’s time for you to have a tune-up. Pull up and let yourself be inspected and repaired! God made you a beautiful child for his pleasure and joy. Never forget that he alone loves you more than any one else ever can or ever will. His love is perfect. His plan is Divine.
Blessing this New Year!
Thanks Jesus for keeping all the parts in order and the motor ticking…
My dear friend’s words come to mind, “Let it begin with me.”
She is wise beyond her years- literally. Betty passed this year. She left me a wealth of wisdom to sort through. And she is not the only one who left me a neat pile of clear thinking; which I sort through. Every piece of wisdom is folded carefully. Each waits to become part of a treasured quilt, a thing of joy.
My hands are busy.
In the doings of my undoings- I let God choose when and how the pieces will come together. After all; who better than God to create something new?
Let it begin with me.
Please God, let your work begin with me.
Please, prepare me to be a fashion of your complete will. Please, go ahead…
But haven’t you always gone ahead of us promising you would be there for us when we arrived?
Who would have guessed that from this surrendering to you, God; I would be set free?
Surely not myself.
I see the harm I have done to others and to myself by trying to be everything for them. What a good opinion of myself I built up to serve my poor self esteem. This was done without my intent to fail their need to their own responsibilities and to their own growth. But it was a control that stunted them. It also stunted me. I must have thought I knew more than you; of course without thinking my actions might interfere with your will. Sorry…
I reached the end of me.
There you are, in wait.
My thanks and praise Dear Lord for your ever considerate love.
Please keep it coming.
My trust is in you.
Truth is a powerful mother…
During the past few days; I’ve had a chance to look at truth straight in the eye. Believe me; it’s been looking right back at me.
God called me on this one. And He certainly has my attention! Let me share with you what I have learned.
Remember the operative word here is ‘motive’.
We can knee jerk from actions of others. We can also ask God’s hand to steady us and reveal what is going on. Though I believe it is essential to respect His timing. In the past; I’ve knee jerked my way along. I’ve thought of it as an action when really; it was a response. So, what’s the real difference?
I’ve come to learn; a reaction is not asking the question, “What is my motive?” A reaction is a response driven by a learned behavior. In my case; I learned how to respond because I was afraid.
An action usually involves a strategy and a follow through. Of course, strategies require that you take stock of your resources, consider the goal, assess when the time to act is optimal, consider the possible outcomes, understand your opposition or challenge and estimate your loss or gain if taking this action.
If you’re a devoted Christian like I am; then it also requires turning all of this over to His will. It means you will serve His will and defend His truth as well; when called to do so.
So, I understand much of what motivates me has been fear, hoping to win the approval of those near and dear, hating to let people down and doing for them what they can’t or won’t do for themselves. Oh brother; what a wake up call this is…
One of the other and most important thing I’ve fastened my brain around is this: we do not cause, we cannot cure and we cannot control the illness of addiction. Addiction can be with money, power, alcohol, food, drugs, sex, compulsion, work, control and probably some others I do not know about. These illnesses cannot be cured with words, controlling, monitoring or anything else. They cannot be cured by our hope of a better life for those near and dear. For instance, you cannot cure addiction from any of these responses any more than you can cure the illness of diabetes or cancer.
Ministering, talking, teaching or even doing things to keep things going smoothly will not cure, curb or control an illness.
Where does that leave me? Well, for one thing; I understand why none of my responses worked in the past. I understand what my motives were. Secondly, I am relieved to understand that addiction is not a behavioral issue. It is an illness.
Now, my action is to ask what my motive is before I get wrapped up in something “too big of me”. Mable, a wise woman, learned this saying from her grandson Jason, “It’s too big of me.” So I’m saying it now. Thanks so much for these words Mable and Jason!
I’m very thankful that God has taken me up and reveals to me these things. How powerful and graceful he is to find the right time to heal me of my former self.
I wish to thank you God. And I hope dear Jesus, you enjoy my sharing your truth.
At a time when another holds an opinion of you that reduces you to a little less than nothing; what do you have left? You have God. You have his son, Jesus. You have the holiest spirit of Christ with you. And you may also be fortunate enough to have a few loving, dear friends at your side.
Recently, I was subjected to the experience of verbal abuse. It wasn’t fun. It was a hurtful thing. The wounds cannot be detected on my skin. They run deep. In God’s timing with his will; they shall heal.
In the abusing, confiscating, debasing behavior that I experienced; I found humor.
Now, I’ll tell you something I hope you can laugh about.
I was smiling inside myself about the monologue that came spewing my way-but not at first. It did take the afternoon to settle into God’s peace. Then, I realized that all of what I had been told that morning was “fake news”.
We’ve been hearing a lot lately about “fake news”. Fake news is false reporting. It is something other than the truth. You can’t trust false news to be accurate. You can’t rely on it. It just isn’t so.
I am not a looser. I’m not a financial weight or burden. I am not the reported reason for another’s burden of work and subsequent misery. I am not the reason for someone else’s feelings of scarcity. I am a contributing, hard working asset to this marriage. I bring a lot into this home. I contribute financially, emotionally and most importantly, spiritually.
This is not my opinion of myself, but rather the truth that Jesus shares lovingly with me as he comforts me in HIS truth. For this my gratitude is infinite.
Can you just imagine all the “fake news” Jesus was subjected to about himself by others? Wow, there was a lot of fake news going on about him at that time! He found his way through it. Somehow, he even made peace with it or peace into it. Isn’t Jesus amazing?
I don’t feel above my husband or better than he. I do think we have different lessons to learn. Some of my work is to love him even when he poses himself as my enemy. “Love your enemies,” Jesus says.
When things go wrong, don’t go with them.
Go directly to God.
P.S. I love how Jesus gets me to write about him and share his good works…
Thank you most heartily dear Lord