My dear friend’s words come to mind, “Let it begin with me.”
She is wise beyond her years- literally. Betty passed this year. She left me a wealth of wisdom to sort through. And she is not the only one who left me a neat pile of clear thinking; which I sort through. Every piece of wisdom is folded carefully. Each waits to become part of a treasured quilt, a thing of joy.
My hands are busy.
In the doings of my undoings- I let God choose when and how the pieces will come together. After all; who better than God to create something new?
Let it begin with me.
Please God, let your work begin with me.
Please, prepare me to be a fashion of your complete will. Please, go ahead…
But haven’t you always gone ahead of us promising you would be there for us when we arrived?
Who would have guessed that from this surrendering to you, God; I would be set free?
Surely not myself.
I see the harm I have done to others and to myself by trying to be everything for them. What a good opinion of myself I built up to serve my poor self esteem. This was done without my intent to fail their need to their own responsibilities and to their own growth. But it was a control that stunted them. It also stunted me. I must have thought I knew more than you; of course without thinking my actions might interfere with your will. Sorry…
I reached the end of me.
There you are, in wait.
My thanks and praise Dear Lord for your ever considerate love.
Please keep it coming.
My trust is in you.